32 Weeks

Statistics:
32 Weeks
Starting Weight: 135
Current Weight: 171

Well, it's about 5:45 AM and I figure now is as good a time as any to FINALLY write another update. It seems like things are getting busier and busier around here and I rarely find the time to update my blog.

Since my last blog post, I have had 2 appointments with my midwife and my gestational diabetes screening. The good news is that I apparently passed my 1 hour glucose test since I have not been contacted to take the 3 hour. Praise Jesus (seriously). I've gone over many times my severe disdain (aka hate) for any kind of IV needles, including blood draws.

The baby continues to grow. He (yes, I just refer to the baby as he/him) is measuring bigger than Payslie was at this stage, although I am well aware of the fact that ultrasounds are just estimates and are quite often, off on their predictions. Apparently he likes to eat because he's got quite a belly on him, haha. At my 29 week appointment he was head down, but unfortunately at my 31 week appointment, he has turned breech, which is where he remains today. I saw my chiropractor on Wednesday for an adjustment and I also had acupuncture performed. That was 2 days ago and baby is still breech. I have another appointment with him next Friday prior to seeing my midwife for my 33 week appointment.

I know I still have 8 weeks until I am due, but after having 2 breech babies, thinking of another on the horizon and my VBAC plans becoming a no-go has been quite honestly disappointing and frustrating. I hold out hope as Payslie flipped head down at 34 weeks (only to flip back up at 35). My midwife has also reassured me that the more pregnancies a woman has, the longer it usually takes the baby to settle into a birthing position as they have just a little more room than a first timer. Our last option would be to attempt a manual version (when a doctor attempts to manually turn the baby from the outside). This carries the risk of sending the baby into distress, so it would have to be performed in the hospital in the event that that does happen and an emergency c-section would be required. Not to mention I have heard from many sources that this procedure is extremely painful. I need to pray more about that one if that is an option put on the table.

I've continued to pray about it, asking God to please turn this baby. After expressing my frustrations, I've also asked for peace if it is NOT in His plan for me to VBAC. Ultimately, I want to come home with a baby. I know MY plan for how I want that to come about, but I'm also trusting Him since He sees ahead and knows me better than I know myself. Having another c-section is not ideal. I hate surgery, the long hospital stay, and the fact that I don't get to hold my baby until 45 minutes after he/she is born. The painful recovery and not to mention the feeling that I have been robbed of a huge part of motherhood (the labor process) also factor into that equation. Of course, in the midst of my pity party, I try to remain thankful that I am able to carry my own children. Cody and I haven't struggled with fertility issues. We have had our share of sorrow after losing Brooke, but we've experienced the ultimate joy in holding our beautiful, healthy Payslie. And we look forward to adding another child to our family. For these things I remain thankful.

I must say that I am not as anxious as I was during my previous pregnancy. When I wake up in the middle of the night is when I find those anxious thoughts of another stillbirth creeping into my mind (I lost Brooke in the night if any of you may recall). Fortunately this little one is usually quite active and he/she moves around enough to let me know he/she is ok. And of course, I have God's peace.

So this weekend we are hopefully going to set up Payslie's "big girl" room and re-decorate the nursery. I am really excited for this process and it's making me all the more excited to bring this baby home in 2 months (or less)!

Continued prayer requests: Baby to turn head down, but if not, for peace with that situation. Wisdom on a decision if a manual version is brought up. Ultimately, healthy, screaming baby and an uneventful delivery for me. Thanks!

Picture is my 30 week belly shot.